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This is a little something I wrote when I was feeling down...

When You’re Not You


 
    When you’re not you…

You do things to hurt me

And to make me cry

You break my heart

And absolutely kill me inside.


 When you’re not you…

You lie to me

Run away and disappear

You leave me crying and worrying

All alone and sitting here.

 
      When you’re not you…

You always say that you’re sorry

But that’s just words that you say

They’re empty and hollow

Something to take your guilt away.

 
        When you’re not you…

You don’t know how much pain

You really put me through

How much I die each time

You do what you do.

 
      When you’re not you…

Absolutely nothing matters

You only worry about yourself

You don’t care about me

Or anybody else.


       When you’re not you…

Everything we’ve worked for crumbles

Becomes like dust in the wind

Then we have to pick up the pieces

And start all over again.

 

  When you’re not you…

I don’t know what to do

I don’t know what to say

I don’t know if I should let you go

Or if I should stay.

 
       When you’re not you…

I can’t see the person you are

The man I know you can be

I can’t see the man that I married

That promised he’d always be there for me.

 
      When you’re not you…

The choices you make

Destroy everything in sight

Your all I’ll ever want

But I don’t know if I can continue to fight.

 
      When you’re not you…

I don’t know how much longer

I can do what I do

Or how much longer I can be here

….When you’re not you.

FOR ANYONE THAT HAS BEEN HURT BY THE ONE YOU LOVE THE MOST.....

My Mistake


I made a mistake
You, I thought you would catch me when I fell
You give me tastes of Heaven
But you also drag me through Hell.

You break my heart
You make me cry
You cause me so much pain
When you sneak and you lie.

Can’t you see
What you put me through
How you hurt me, tear me down
Leave me worried, broken too?

I know that I love you
More than you love me
I’ve known that all along
Its easy for anyone to see.

You don’t love me enough
To stop what you do
To put me first in your life
Like I always do you.

Sometimes I think you want me to quit
To walk away forever, to leave you alone
Its in the things you say
Its in the actions you’ve show.

If I was smart,
I’d turn and walk away
And not let you continue to hurt me
Not even for one more day.

But instead I stay
Hoping you’ll do what’s right
Hoping you’ll be you
And be worth the fight.

How can I leave
When all I want is to stay To live the rest of my life with you
Each and every day?



Its not lack of courage
That continues to hold me here
Its not stupidity or desperation
And its certainty not fear.



Its my unending love
Unconditional and true
I see the real man you are inside
That’s what keeps me here with you.



I take everything you throw at me
Every wild curve, every sharp, twisting bed
I’m holding on to us for dear life
Praying for the hurting to end.



I just wish you’d fight for me
Like I fight for you
Do what’s best for us
Not just whatever you want to.



But its never going to happen is it?
I’m always going to be last
Its going to continue
Like it always has in the past.



You’ll do what you want
And not give a damn about me
You’ll push and push and push me away
Until you win and you make me leave.



Maybe that’s what you want
Maybe that’s what you need
Maybe I’m not right for you
Maybe you’re not right for me.



But it would be so hard to leave
Give up on the one I live my life for
To just say “Fuck it”
And head for the door.



But no matter what happens to us
If our relationships falls apart and ceases
I will still be loving you forever
Broken hearted but with every one of the pieces.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 



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